The Songs That Saw Me Through 2018

05-01-2019 12:01

Like I said in my previous blog post, 2018 was quite the year. It was a year of a lot of ups and quite a few downs, it saw massive changes in my life and a lot of people come and go. It was a very transformative year in my life; I graduated, moved country and started my first full-time job. And, like any other normal human being, I listened to a lot of music in crucial moments, be them happy or sad. I found that this year especially,was a crucial year for me in my life.

Earlier in December, Spotify curated my top songs of 2018 and I realised that this year I’ve listened to a lot of great songs, although I appreciate a lot of them were sad and emotional. I decided to go through 100 song playlist and find the songs which best sum up my year. The songs that I’ve pick out the for you guys are the songs which have marked my 2018. I hope you can listen to them and that perhaps they will help you (and maybe make you cry a little) in the same way that they helped me this past year. 

  1. Don’t Watch Me Cry — Jorja Smith:

    “Oh, it’s harder when they don’t know what they’ve done”

    This song, as well as this artist in general, was an incredible find this year. I spent a lot of time in my room, with incense lit and a vanilla candle on the the go, staring out of my bedroom thinking I was in some sort of music video.

2. Rise Up — Andra Day 

“I’ll rise up, I’ll rise like the day, I’ll rise up, I’ll rise unafraid”

I embarrassingly found this song a Zoella vlog (please don’t judge me too harshly) and I found it a massive source of inspiration and motivation this year when I found myself in my lowest points. It’s an incredibly relaxing song yet incredibly powerful.

3. Grace — Lewis Capaldi 

I found salvation in the form of your grace”

This was a relative late find within the year, but one that I probably listened to none stop for a solid month or so. Its lyrics are matched with a really comical video which really just makes this song so much better. I’m really excited to see a lot more from Lewis Capaldi, he’s such a great artist.

4. Deja Que Te Bese — Alejandro Sanz 

“Deja que se enteren, como yo te quiero, y como tú me quieres, deja que nos miren, cuando te enamores, no te quejes, deja que mi alma brille”

It wouldn’t be a review of 2018 in music if there wasn’t a Hispanic song in here. 2018 was the year that the Spanish-speaking world really dominated the charts. This, quite frankly, cheesy love song really perked up my year.

5. Missing U — Robyn

“There’s this empty space you left behind now you’re not here with me”

A lot of summer was spent driving around with my friend Anna screaming our little hearts out to this song when Robyn made her come back this year. We were both going through some similar relationship dramas and this song definitely got a few of our angers out.

6. Bloom — Troye Sivan 

“Take a trip into my garden, I’ve got a lot to show you”

The bop about bottoming that we thought 2018 would never deliver but it surprisingly did. It was so nice having a song so masterfully and tastefully done about gay sex.

7. Silhouette — Grace Carter

“After all you’ve done, I deserve some peace” 

When I first listened to this song, it absolutely mesmerised me. The song is so simple, so pure and so raw. I’ve listened to it pretty much constantly the last couple of months. I find it so empowering and real. I really can’t get enough of Grace Carter.

8. I’ll Still Have Me — CYN 

“If I don’t have you, at least I still have me”

Once again, I have to thank Anna for this discovery. Another simple yet incredibly powerful song which really gets those feelings going. The video is a bit of heart wrencher too, if I’m honest.

9. I’ll Never Love Again — Lady Gaga and Bradley Cooper

“I wish I could have said goodbye, I would have said I wanted to, maybe even cried for you”

This song really tore me apart when I first saw it, I really wasn’t expecting the story line that the film delivered nor the emotional turmoil that ensued afterwards. This song, which plays at the end of the film, really hit me for some unknown reason.

10. Solo De Mi — Bad Bunny

“Yo no soy tuyo ni de nadie, yo soy sólo de mí”

We love a Spanish song by a Latin trap artist which preaches about emotional independence and self-ownership. Here’s to all the lovers that f**ked up and lost everything they had in 2018, enjoy 2019 without us.

I hope you all very the best 2019 and that its filled with everything love and happiness.