I Owe You

07-12-2018 01:12

As the semester comes to a close I can finally find time to sit on my couch cuddled up with my cat and laptop and write, because I owe you guys a blog post.


First off I can’t tell you how happy I am that the semester is practically over (last day is tomorrow with the following week final exams). This has been the hardest semester of college thus far, but it has also been a semester full of insight, inspiration, and discovery. In my blog post Life:It’s a Real Treat I had mentioned how rough my math class was going. I’m here to say that as of right now I have a solid 0% in the class because of my exams. This class has been the hardest, and most ridiculous class I have ever taken, but I want to thank it. In between all the nights of homework and studying for exams, and the countless tears I cried after receiving yet another 0% on an exam I discovered my passion.

As many of you know I was taking this math class to continue through the elementary education program. It was the first of three education math classes I needed to take in order to move onto the levels of the program. I was very troubled at the beginning of the semester because of the grading of this class. I knew I wasn’t going to pass, and I knew I was going to be taking this class forever if I were to stick with elementary education. I had to make a choice. I’m not going to lie, it was hard. I spent about a month weighing all my options and seeing what I could still do in education. The answer finally came clear to me, English Teaching. With the English Teaching degree at my university I would be preparing myself to be teaching secondary education. I set up a meeting to meet with one of the English Department advisors; and can I just say I’ve never walked out of an advisor meeting so excited and inspired as I did that day. I had the thought run through my mind; ‘You did it Sami. I’ve found your thing.’ My passion for education, reading, and writing have only grown as I’ve already been browsing through Pinterest to find fun English classroom activities.

Oh, but it only gets better. I have decided to put myself out there and submit a paper to the National Undergraduate Literature Conference under the direction and coaching of my Children Literature professor. I am very excited, yet nervous for this opportunity. I’m excited because I obviously want to do this, but I’m nervous because I’m submitting my writing to the National Undergraduate Literature Conference. NATIONAL! I mean, yeah I think I’m a good writer and so does my mom and grandma, but this is a national contest and I’m sure there is some English Literature Wiz in California or New York who is going to come to the conference with their paper and destroy everybody with their English literature awesomeness. Now you’re probably thinking, Well, if that’s the case why are you even doing it? I’m doing it because a goal of mine in 2019 is to put myself out there. I am 100% introvert. I don’t talk to strangers naturally. I hate crowds. And I have some serious anxiety when it comes to “being in the spotlight”. I hate attention, and by participating in this conference I am throwing myself into the spotlight. I may have a panic attack and die, but I also might grow from this experience. And I’m hoping for the second one. As the conference date becomes closer I will fill all of you in on the details, and well, if you don’t hear back on how it went I obviously had a panic attack and died.

Also with the semester coming to a close I have been thinking about where I want my educational path to go. I have seriously been contemplating getting my PhD in English Teaching (or something to the effect of that). Essentially I want to have a PhD where I can share my passion for both English and teaching. I know, slow down! I don’t even have my Bachelor Degree yet. But soon I will (Fall 2021 can’t come soon enough) and then depending on where I am in life and how teaching is going I just might go back and get a PhD. Why? Because my passion for English and teaching is so strong I want to share it with young people who also have the same passion. I want to give back to my university and model and shape the future’s teachers. That is my dream.

Now that I have expressed all my love, passion, and dreams let’s talk about what I’ve been up to for the last month. Besides school, at the beginning of November I celebrated my husband’s 28th birthday! We kept things simple and went out to dinner and saw Venom. Personally not my favorite Marvel movie, but decent at best. I also decided on a whim that I wanted to cut and color my hair. It’s always an inner battle of mine because I”m obsessed with my younger sister’s long hair, so I want to grow my hair out and have luscious locks like her, but then I’ve always had shorter hair so I can’t grow my hair like an inch pass my shoulders. I blame Pinterest for showing me too many cute short haircuts! So yes I cut and colored my hair, but I had to spice it up because I was so sick of all the blonde in my hair. Since I was like twelve I’ve always had blonde highlights in my hair, and now that I’m 21 I can say I’m sick of blonde. So I went with a brown with reddish tints in it and I love it.


Before and After of my hair.

The third week of November I had the best weekend with my cousin Nikki. We went to Time Out For Women in Sandy, UT and it was hands down a blast. For you that don’t know what Time Out For Women is, it is a weekend getaway sponsored by Deseret Book for women of all faiths, backgrounds, and walks of life to come be uplifted through sweet messages and music.

The theme for this year’s Time Out For Women was “Centered in Christ”, and the scripture reference, “I am the vine,ye are the branches” {John 15:5}. During our two-day event were got the opportunity to listen to Lauren Day, Gail Miller, Mary Ellen Edmunds, Tom Christofferson, Tamu Smith and Zandra Vranes, and Emily Freeman, with music by: Calee Reed and Mercy River. Overall the program was amazing and exactly what I needed to hear. My favorite message was from singer Calee Reed. I loved the message she had to share about her song Broken and Beautiful. Before she sang her song she talked about Kintsugi. Kintsugi is a Japanese repairing method for repairing broken ceramics with a special lacquer mixed with gold, silver, or platinum. The philosophy behind the technique is to recognize the history of the object and to visibly incorporate the repair into the new piece instead of disguising it. She told us that Kintsugi was the inspiration to her music video Broken and Beautiful. To listen to her song Broken and Beautiful click HERE. I really loved this because there are so many times were I find myself picking out all my flaws and set backs and just hating myself, where instead I should acknowledge my broken pieces, weaknesses, and struggles and give them to God, because through the atonement of Jesus Christ I can be made whole.

The speakers and messages were all awesome, but my most favroite part was spending time with my cousin Nikki. It’s been a bumpy year and it just felt so good to just talk about anything and everything with her. I am the oldest in my family, and it really felt good to seem like the younger sister role in our conversations because I do look up to Nikki like a big sister. This weekend was definently one I will cherish forever.

The next week was Thanksgiving! I impressed myself by actually making candied yams and they were delicious.


We spent Thanksgiving with Shaun’s family this year and had a fun time. I have made Black Friday “Christmas Decorating Day” and stayed home decorating my house with my cat and dog. They honestly were more of roadblocks in the decorating process, but I apperciated there efforts. And the icing on the cake was Pepper’s obession with the Christmas tree skirt. She literally thought I put that out for her to sleep and play on- so for the tree skirt’s sake it has been hidden until Christmas Eve.

The next week Shaun and I celebrated our 2nd wedding anniversary! To celebrate we went to the Cheesecake Factory and then went to see Jim Gaffigan at the Vivent Smart Home Arena. The food was good and Jim was HILARIOUS! Overall it was a great night.


December 2, 2016. Two years happily married.

So I know in a past blog post I told you guys I was going to do monthly favroites to rate and rave about my favroite things I saw or used in the month, November’s is a little sad because it has just been so crazy, but some are better then none!

Books: This is going to probably be cheap, but I have read so many children books (mostly for my Children Lit class) but I have loved all of them. Check out all my favroites over on my Children Literature Resource File HERE.

TV Series: Okay first of this is an oldie but a goodie- F.R.I.E.N.D.S! It is available to watch on Netflix and I have seen so many rumors and he said she said that Netflix is taking it off their list of TV shows so we might as well binge watch it until it’s gone.


Another Netflix show that I recommend is a Netflix Original called Atypicial. Atypical is a coming of age story that follows Sam, an 18-year-old on the autistic spectrum as he searches for love and independence. While Sam is on his funny yet emotional journey of self-discovery, the rest of his family must grapple with change in their own lives as they all struggle with the central theme: what does it really mean to be normal? If you want to watch a quick trailor click HERE.


Beauty: My go to beauty product the past month has been Color Street Nails. They are nail polsih strips that you apply to your fingers or toes without any heat or other contraptions. I love them because they are 100% nail polish and they last a good solid 2-3 weeks depending on how rough you are with your hands. When you apply them to your toes, they last a good couple months. I love all their designs and patterns they have PLUS they are affordable. I am not the type of girl who always has to have her nails done because I am rougher on my hands than most with my job and then when I paint, but I do love to have these for special occasions when I want my hands to look pretty. If you are intersted in seeing more of their designs, pricing, and maybe even buying some for yourself or a loved one check out Color Street HERE.

And that’s it. I want to thank everyone for taking the time to read my blog and for all the support and love I receive! And hopefully I will see you guys back here next week with some sort of creative writing. As always if you have any suggestions please share them in the comments below.