09 Dec 18
The Scottish Sun
LAUREN Goodger is curled up on a sofa defending the considerable size of her lips. “They’re not even that big!” she exclaims.
“I think they’re smaller than other people’s. God, I’m not as bad as some.”
Lauren Goodger has been labelled a cosmetic addict but can’t see what all the fuss is about
She laughs, genuinely baffled as to why anyone would think the fillers that have given her a permanently swollen pout might be in any way OTT.
“They only last for three months and I haven’t really got anything left in there at the moment.
They’re quite small, actually. I’ve never had a small mouth. I prefer the natural look, anyway.”
That might surprise people…
Lauren says she prefers a more natural pout despite having fillers
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“Surprise people?” Again, she’s mystified. “Really? OK.”
Of all the very public dramas Lauren has been through over the last decade – the heartbreaks and unsuitable boyfriends, the collapse of her business – it’s her face and body that have been the subject of the most scrutiny.
What she has (or hasn’t) had done, whether or not it’s gone horribly wrong and the weight she’s lost or piled back on, it’s kept her in the showbiz headlines eight eventful years on from the launch of TOWIE and six after she quit the show.
It would be easy to see her as a modern-day tragedy, blighted by the fame she courts and caught in a desperate rut of insecurity and self-loathing, which she treats with endless trips to her plastic surgeon.
The reality TV star was on the first ever series of The Only Way is Essex
Except this isn’t how she sees herself. At all. It’s not how she comes across in person either.
On the contrary, Lauren, 32, is self-assured and confident, quite delighted with how she looks, thanks very much, and above anything else, bewildered by the attention focused on her cosmetic procedures.
“I don’t think I’m abnormal looking,” she says. “If I look at a pap picture of me and my face, I’m like: ‘Oh my god, do I look like that?’ and my mates will tell me no.
“I don’t feel like I’ve had so much done to myself that I don’t still look like the girl next door.
Lauren in 2011 sporting a more natural look
Obviously I’m not going to look like the girl I was nine or 10 years ago because I’m a woman now.
It’s impossible to look the same, but I think I look better now than I did then. I’m getting better with age.”
But Lauren, your face has changed quite a bit since then.
“Do you think?”
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Um, yeah. When she’s told it’s “obvious” she’s had work done, she’s taken aback and a little miffed.
“Really? OK then. What do you reckon I’ve had done?”
There are some procedures that Lauren happily admits to (nose, boobs, Botox, lips, lipo on her waist and the infamous jaw fillers, which we’ll come to shortly) and others that she denies wholeheartedly, although not entirely convincingly.
Lauren has had jaw filler, giving her a very different look
Before we begin the interview, it’s made clear that she has to be completely honest about all the surgery, but it doesn’t always feel like Lauren is keeping her side of the bargain.
Take the Kardashian-esque behind – a gargantuan arse by anyone’s standards, defying both gravity and logic, which, Lauren claims, wide-eyed and innocent, is purely down to a hardcore squatting regime at the gym.
“Nooo!” she scolds at the suggestion of surgery. “Don’t be stupid! Bum implants?”
She laughs as if the mere idea is utterly preposterous. Implants? In the bum? Imagine!
Lauren believes pictures make her surgery look more extreme
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“I actually love it when people don’t believe me. I don’t even think it looks like I have, but when I do weight training it becomes more pert. My bum goes up and down. Sometimes I look at pictures and I think it looks different, but that’s just pictures.”
She quite often returns to this theory that it’s the pictures making her features appear more extreme. Worrying about which photos newspapers and gossip magazines print used to be a cause of stress, but Lauren has learned to turn the other, ahem, cheek.
“Nah, doesn’t bother me. Let ‘em use a s**t picture and make their magazine look cheap and tacky. In America everything is much more wow and beautiful and celebrated.”
But pictures definitely weren’t to blame when it came to the effects of the aforementioned jaw fillers – a decision Lauren made on a whim and one that drastically and alarmingly changed her entire face.
Lauren says there was nothing particularly wrong with her jawline, which doesn’t explain why she had it altered
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“Well, basically a lot of people have started getting their jawlines enhanced and my friend had just qualified [to administer it],” she explains.
“It was stupid of me, but she was like: ‘Trust me, if I do this for you, you’ll love it and you’ll look like…’ and she mentioned some names of some girls who have had it done. And I was like: ‘OK.’”
That seems like quite a blasé attitude to completely altering the shape of your face by injecting actual hyaluronic acid into it.
“It’s just filler,” she says matter-of-factly. “She just injects it into your jaw.”
The reality TV star also denies having bum implants, saying her bootylicious figure is down to weight training
Lauren says there was nothing particularly wrong with her jawline – in fact, she describes it as “good” – so it’s a struggle to understand why she went ahead with the treatment in the first place.
“It’s just a new thing that had come out and everyone was doing it and I was told I’d really like it.
So I was like: ‘Go on then,’ thinking it was going to be a minor thing, and…”And?
Lauren admits to having nose and boob jobs, Botox, lips work and lipo on her waist plus jaw fillers
She cringes, remembering the day the pap shots were published. She’d initially denied having anything done before realising the pictures were so damning that she had to backtrack.
“I saw the pictures. I knew I had to get it removed, so I did. It’s really easy to remove. They inject the solution and it goes that day. Your body breaks it down.”
Just like that. Speaking to Lauren is perplexing and frustrating. She’s impenetrable. Whether it’s denial or delusion, she truly doesn’t think what she’s doing is anything out of the ordinary.
Maybe amid the obsession with Botox, boob jobs and bee-stung lips, it’s been forgotten what normal faces and bodies look like.
Lauren doesn’t think what she’s doing to her face and body is anything out of the ordinary
“Yeah,” she nods in agreement, although clearly not making a connection. “I’ve got friends who’ve never had anything done and I think it’s refreshing. It’s definitely more normal to have stuff done, though.”
She doesn’t draw any parallels between herself and other celebrities, either, who it could be argued have gone a bit Bride of Wildenstein. When she looks at people, such as Charlotte Crosby and Chloe Ferry, she thinks their surgeons should refuse to treat them.
“I don’t think it’s attractive, I really don’t. If you’re looking for perfection, you’re fighting for something you’re never ever going to get. You can change something but it’s never enough, so just leave it. But maybe they are told that, so they just go to someone else until they get a yes. Maybe they can’t recognise it themselves.
“It’s too easy to go and get something done now. A hundred percent. I feel like it shouldn’t be as accessible.”
Lauren Goodger says she doesn’t look at the comments on social media
Can surgery be addictive?
“It can be addictive, yeah. If you start changing one thing, you see something else. It becomes an obsession. You’ve got people who are obsessed with being skinny and that’s not healthy either. It’s about moderation with everything. You are who you are and there’s only so much you can do. I’m confident and happy.
“I can relate to that [feeling of wanting to keep changing things]. But I’m not addicted, and I don’t want people thinking I’ve had this and that done because actually, naturally I’m quite pretty, thanks.”
Of the reality TV cohort, it’s arguably Lauren who bears the brunt of online abuse. On social media and in some parts of the press she has become an object of ridicule, someone who it’s almost fair game to mock and malign.
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The TV star says she doesn’t want to be a role model for young girls to get plastic surgery
“I don’t know why I’m a target. I don’t get a break from it. It’s always a dig and it’s always about image.
I don’t look at the comments on social media. Who cares about people who don’t know me?
“But however hard it’s been, I’m grateful that I got the chance to do TOWIE and I wouldn’t change any of it. I’m real and I’m a human with feelings, but I’m also strong and I love that I’ve done it.”
Lauren says the public perception of her is off the mark.
“Everyone who meets me says I’m completely different to what they thought. I was the one on the TOWIE set who had everyone in stitches – real banter, a real laugh, I’m funny and I take the p**s out of myself.
“People think I take myself so seriously because of my social media, but I’m actually the opposite. I know it comes across vain, but I hope people don’t think that of me.
“In the street everyone is lovely. They’re like: ‘Oh my god Lauren,’ and give me cuddles. I do pictures with people and they say: ‘Oh my god, you’re really small aren’t you? You’re really pretty!’ And all my DMs are lovely. I’ve got a big girl fan base and I think they can relate to me. I’m not this person who is unattainable.”
Does she feel like a role model to women and girls?
“Yes I am, but what p**ses me off is when it all comes back to surgery, because that’s not what I want to put out there.
Lauren says she’s not an airhead or fake Barbie doll
“I want people to know how I’ve become independent doing what I’ve done by myself. Nobody has ever paid for anything for me, even my driving lessons. I did that myself. I want girls to know that whatever they’re going through – heartbreak, break-ups, jobs, body, image, family – it’s OK. As long as you’re a good person you’ll be OK.
“It’s not all about what I’ve had done or going to get my lips done. I hate that, it’s so Essex.”
Hang on. That’s pretty scathing about the county she’s synonymous with? Lauren points out that, actually, she was born in Hackney and only moved eastwards to Essex when she was four.
“I like where I live, but I do laugh at people sometimes and think: ‘I’m not like that, am I?’ You
know, all the Essex mums. I want to have a balance.
After breaking up with Mark Wright, Lauren dated Jake McLean and jailbird Joey Morrison
I’m not an airhead or up myself, I’m not this fake Barbie doll. I’ve got a personality.”
When it comes to love, she’s the first to admit that she’s made some questionable choices over the years.
After splitting with Mark Wright in 2011, she’s dated Jake McLean (an ex-con with a history of violence and a relationship Lauren has since described as “toxic” and jailbird Joey Morrison, who was in prison the whole time they were together, serving nine years of a 16-year sentence for a series of violent drug-related offences.)
“It’s the devil in me,” she says. “Bad boys are sexy! I couldn’t be with someone who works in an office, I’d get bored.
“Being with someone in jail, it’s very intense and romantic. You know: ‘We’re going to build a house together,’ and all that. But when they get out, they’re not who you thought they were.
Lauren has low expectations of men, saying all of them will stray eventually
“The reality was completely different to the fantasy.
I don’t want to slag [Joey] off but he’s a different person now he’s out.”
She has low expectations of men in general, though. All of them will stray eventually, apparently.
“Oh, they’re all cheats. Every man is a cheat. You’ve just got to deal with it. They love the attention, don’t they? You’ve got to keep them on their toes. If you row and don’t get on it will definitely happen.
Lauren moved out of her parents’ home when she was 17
“I’ll try my best to make a good decision next time cos I want to get married, have kids and be bored! I thought all that would have happened by 26, but it didn’t. I could have done it, but I’d have been on my own now and I want to give my kid my time, my love and a good home life.”
A happy home life wasn’t something Lauren really had as a child, and her relationship with her mother has long been fractured. They haven’t spoken to each other in a year.
“Can we repair things? I dunno. She’s got her own issues. She’s a good person, we just don’t have that relationship.
“I am who I am because of me. I’ll do things differently when I have my own children. It will be normal and loving and they’ll be my everything.”
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Did she feel loved growing up?
“When I was younger, but not when I was older. But it made me very independent. I moved out at 17, got a flat and had three jobs.”
She jokes that she’d give her job description as “lunatic” before settling on “TV personality”, and says she’d love to do I’m A Celebrity! as well as restarting her businesses. She quit her own tan company Lauren’s Way two years ago, walking away empty-handed after falling out with her business partner.
“People might think I’m a millionaire but no,” she says. “I did very well from Lauren’s Way and I got close [to making a million], but I got f**ked over and that’s why I’m in this position now. It’s very frustrating.”
Lauren reckons she should do more pap pics to make some extra cash
Her income today is from sponsored social media posts, a magazine column and various shoots.
“I should do more pap pics,” she says, referring to the well-worn celebrity practice of setting up photos with a paparazzo and then taking a cut of the sales.
“I hate them, but you earn money out of them. In 2019 I’ll do more. I’m financially comfortable and I live life, but it’s never enough. I’ve got hunger for it. I had a break from it and then all these new lot [from Love Island] come in and they’re striving for it so
I think: ‘F**k, I need to get back and be business-minded like them.’”
It sounds exhausting trying to keep up.
“It is exhausting. But I want to work and do things and use this as a platform. That’s what I keep telling myself: ‘Get back to it, you used to be so good at it!’”
Is she happy?
“Yeah, I am. I have my moments and I get stressed, but overall I’m all right. Sometimes I wake up and it’s quite lonely and it feels like no one’s really there for me. But I feel like I’m
a good person and I’m happy with me. I’m trying to do what I can.”
[boxout headline=”Feeling sociable”]Favourite platform? Instagram. I love looking at people’s pictures rather than reading about how delayed their train to work was!
Insta favourites? Will Smith (@WillSmith). P Diddy is also jokes (@Diddy).
Who influences you? Instagram models like Melissa Molinaro (@Melissamolinaro) and Abby Dowse
(@Abbydowse). For interiors I love @Lovelyinterior and I’m obsessed with animal accounts!
Are you on Facebook? I only joined in the last few months, so I’m late to the party.
Last DM? From Prestige Bootcamp sending me some pics after my recent stay with them.
How do you take the perfect selfie? It’s all about the lighting. Use the torch from someone else’s phone, shining it in your face to take the photo.
Hair: Dino Pereira using Kiehl’s Since 1851 Magic Elixir
Make-up: Yasmine Blache
Styling: Nana Acheampong
Additional photography: Wenn, Rex Features, Splash News
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